UNTITLED

Tired

So the past month have been great. We chatted almost everyday. Everyday I would look forward to our conversations. And I would even get more excited if he was the one saying hi to me first. I dont know why but, that just meant a lot. We could chat forever, and I know this sounds tragic, but that was the highlight of my day. We even skyped with camera. And i could not stop smiling. Everytime I see him, I just cant stop smiling. I propably looked liked a clown, smiling and smiling. When my friend was about to move to Canada, we had a “goodbyedate”, and I kinda invited him. I thought he wasnt going to show up, but he actually did. We sat next to each other, and I know this sounds lame, but it was like I was in heaven. I could just stare and smile forever.

After this, we just started to lose contact little by little. I mean we were talking everyday, and when I wasnt online he woul textmessage me. I tried to start a conversation, but he just wouldnt go on with it. And I didnt want to be pushy either so. It has left me so confused, because he did like my profilpicture on facebook too. And I just saw he got a new tattoo. Why did he not tell me that he was getting a new tattoo? I guess maybe I put too much effort in “whatever-was-going-on” between us. Or maybe I misunderstood the whole friendship-thingy. Im so confused and so tired, because I like him so much. I knew I shouldnt have done this to myself againg. And now i cant stop thinking about him.

This sucks

-k

YOU


 

                       

 I know it’s kinda lame. But I miss him, even though it is just been one day. But when I do think of you I smile (:

I worry to much

I was just about to log off, but then he talked to me. yay. Asked about my profile picture on skype. So cute. I guess i tend to worry to much. #made me happy, made my day

-K.

I’m just to weak

Soo I was supposed to play “hard to get” and not log in to skype. But I just couldnt help myself. I saw he was online, and I want him to say hi to me so badly. Hm.. Maybe I should say hi first, but I dont want so seem to forward. Well well.. what to do…

-K.

Thinking

School was actually ok today. We are experimenting with spot in design class, and it is actually quite fun. You can be creative, and do what you want.
After school was finished I met up with my mom at this clearance sale. Usually I buy a lot of clothes, but I ended up with just a pair of jeans. That’s it! But then again Ofc I had to get a pair of Andy Warhol jeans. Most of you might recognize him for making the famous Marilyn Monroe pop art tho.

-K.


        

Do’s and Don’ts



We girls, or at least I, tend to overthink things. Especially when it comes to boys. So, there is this guy I like who I keep chatting with on skype. But it always takes time till one of us finally says hi. Hm.. I guess we are both waiting for each other to say hi, and dont want to be the first one. Usually I am the one that says hi first and I always says goodbye, while he just logs off, and it kind of makes me sad. I mean he does not always have to say hi, but dont just log off either.
Maybe he is just playing hard to get.

Well now it is my turn. I’ve decided not to log on to skype for a couple off days, and see if he talks to me when I return. Just a little test.

I guess I am over analyzing things. I mean I dont even know if he likes me. We’ll se

-K.

Guess this gonna sound like just another teenage love story, but yeah, here we go…So there is this guy ofc. I met him about 3 years ago. Its kind of a funny story, because it was his friend who hit on me, even though I only had my eyes on this one guy J. Randomly I found J on facebook, and I did not want to let this pass so I decided to talk to him, and we hit it off really fast. We met a couple of times, but after school started we lost contact little by little. It broke my heart, because i really liked him. Later that year I found out he had gotten a girlfriend at his school. And I realized that I had to move on. So I kind of did…Till I transferred school, and of course we ended up in the same class. It was very awkward because, we really did not have a closure before, but there was still some tension. I guess we avoided each other for almost a year till I got drunk at this party the day before summer vacation, and I kinda confessed that I still had some feelings for him. It was just the two of us, talking, waiting for my friend to drive us home. I even called him for two hours after we got home. I knew it was wrong considering he had a girlfriend, but it felt so right at that time…School started again, and we hadnt spoken to each other once since the day before summer vacation. It was a little weird seeing him again, but in a good way. I guess I missed him, even though I could feel there was this weird vibe going on. Our teacher had arranged the class’ seating for the year, and I of course was placed next to him.  It felt good, we talked a lot, I flirted a little, while he was flirting a little bit back, and for a while it was like before. But then of course reality kicked in, he had a girlfriend and I knew it. I also knew she hated me. I mean I think she was threatened by me, and was focusing more on that, then actually trusting him. Because he was actually not doing anything wrong, I just wanted him to. The year past by, we changed seats in class again, and me and him slowly lost contact again. I mean I guess it was for the best, because of the girlfriend situation, but I could hear they fight all the time, and she was always so angry at him. I thought to myself that I would never treat him that way, but it wasnt like I could to anything anyways. It was our senior year and we were about to graduate when I found out that they had broken up. I was kinda happy, but I could see how devastated he was, so I let him be.So this past couple of week we started having contact again, and it feels good. I even found out he lived about 2 minutes from my school! And we have made plans to have lunch when he is staying at his dads? place. I know that there is still something there, I could feel it when we last met, I just dont want to be he rebound. I guess we should just see where it goes from here…

Guess this gonna sound like just another teenage love story, but yeah, here we go…

So there is this guy ofc. I met him about 3 years ago. Its kind of a funny story, because it was his friend who hit on me, even though I only had my eyes on this one guy J. Randomly I found J on facebook, and I did not want to let this pass so I decided to talk to him, and we hit it off really fast. We met a couple of times, but after school started we lost contact little by little. It broke my heart, because i really liked him. Later that year I found out he had gotten a girlfriend at his school. And I realized that I had to move on. So I kind of did…Till I transferred school, and of course we ended up in the same class. It was very awkward because, we really did not have a closure before, but there was still some tension. I guess we avoided each other for almost a year till I got drunk at this party the day before summer vacation, and I kinda confessed that I still had some feelings for him. It was just the two of us, talking, waiting for my friend to drive us home. I even called him for two hours after we got home. I knew it was wrong considering he had a girlfriend, but it felt so right at that time…

School started again, and we hadnt spoken to each other once since the day before summer vacation. It was a little weird seeing him again, but in a good way. I guess I missed him, even though I could feel there was this weird vibe going on. Our teacher had arranged the class’ seating for the year, and I of course was placed next to him.  It felt good, we talked a lot, I flirted a little, while he was flirting a little bit back, and for a while it was like before. But then of course reality kicked in, he had a girlfriend and I knew it. I also knew she hated me. I mean I think she was threatened by me, and was focusing more on that, then actually trusting him. Because he was actually not doing anything wrong, I just wanted him to. 

The year past by, we changed seats in class again, and me and him slowly lost contact again. I mean I guess it was for the best, because of the girlfriend situation, but I could hear they fight all the time, and she was always so angry at him. I thought to myself that I would never treat him that way, but it wasnt like I could to anything anyways. It was our senior year and we were about to graduate when I found out that they had broken up. I was kinda happy, but I could see how devastated he was, so I let him be.

So this past couple of week we started having contact again, and it feels good. I even found out he lived about 2 minutes from my school! And we have made plans to have lunch when he is staying at his dads? place. I know that there is still something there, I could feel it when we last met, I just dont want to be he rebound. I guess we should just see where it goes from here…

Why tumblr?

Because…


When I first started to blog, I did not tell anyone. I wanted to be a little anonymous while still being me. I guess a little part of me wanted people to read it, since the blog is public, But ever since people found out, I have been writing less and less personal things about my life on my blog. I feel like people are judging me, and I cant write what I really feel because maybe I might hurt someone or step my boundaries. I guess it is easier to share your personal life anonymously to strangers, then public with known ones. 

-K.